Monday, January 3, 2011

The Lost Giggles

When my children were small, I read them Judith Viorst’s Alexander and the Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad DayThey loved the melodrama surrounding Alexander’s dreadful day. Later, when something not-so-great happened at our house, my children and I would pretend to be whiny Alexander which always invoked a great deal of giggles.

And therein may you find one of life’s truths. You absolutely cannot be upset when you’re experiencing the giggles. And that is why I stopped blogging after my last post. I lost my giggles.

Much has changed in my life, some things terribly confusing and sad. Every bit of me, physically, mentally, and emotionally, has been hard at work trying to adjust to and reconcile the changes and challenges. I have opted not to write about the awful bits to protect mine and my family’s privacy; frankly, I have not the heart or strength to do so. The giggles are just not there.

© June Scroggin, All Rights Reserved

Although the heart-rending sadness facing my family cannot be avoided, my goal in 2011 is to persevere. My instinct is to turn to prayer which moved me to make prayer beads.
My prayer beads are inspired by the moon, but the colors remind me of the ocean. I used one large “moon” bead as my focal point and then 13 beads each in three different colors to represent the yearly lunar cycle. Doubled-up, the beads may be worn as a bracelet.

© June Scroggin, All Rights Reserved

Thank you to everyone who has written to let me know you are worried about my sudden disappearance. I’ve been worried, too. You have indeed been missed despite my perplexing but necessary silence.
Tomorrow I’ll share some good things happening in my life—maybe prayer, returning to my blog, and renewing friendships will enable me to forge a path back to the land of giggles.


Jennifer W. said...

So sorry to hear 2010 was a rough year for you :( I had some yucky stuff happen as well, and recently broke my blog silence b/c I couldn't stand being two different people - the happy one on my blog, and the sad one in real life. Wishing you the strength to move forward, and the courage to face the future with a smile - even a giggle perhaps.

greetingarts said...

June, your love for life and ability to enjoy and celebrate drew me to you and kept me here. I wish you all the best in 2011 and hope you will find the strength, together with your loved ones, to giggle and be happy again. You have too much light inside for it to be too dim, it will always be shining.

I may not have said any of this correctly, but I'm sending you all my good, positive thoughts. you've been missed.

LaRee said...

I am happy to hear from you again! I've never met you or heard of you before your blog, yet I often felt a deep concern for you and your well being. For you to leave us with that post then not post for so long well, I am genuinely relieved and glad you are back!

nicolette said...

Dear June, I was so happy to see your blog pop up in google reader, but I’m so sorry for what happened in your life in 2010. Sending you positive thoughts and love and hoping for some more of your always surprising and wonderful posts!

Take care!

Michele Bilyeu said...

From all of us who feel we know you, heart and soul, we welcome you back with open and loving arms. Many of us lose our giggles, many of us lose our way. The path changes, time changes, and we change. And before we even realize it has happened, a new fork opens up on the road. and we were where we needed to be, all along. May your very, very, beautiful prayer beads guide you by moonlight, if not by sunlight, along each and every step of your journey....and may they lead you back to the sea from whence your footprints began...and always seem to lead you...once again.

grendelskin said...

I'm sorry that the roller coaster has been mean to you; you have been missed! Your prayer beads are a thing of beauty, I hope they serve their purpose well. Do you know the film "Sleepless in Seattle?" When bad things happen I always think, "just breathe in and out;" the rest will follow with time.

Jane said...

It seems that 2010 was a rough year for a lot of us. I too had to take a blog break to regroup and recuperate. Getting back is a slow, but sweet process. You were missed and I am hopeful that you will find your giggles in writing, crafting and sharing again.

Anonymous said...

Oh June, I am so sorry to hear things have been tough. I wish I could do something to help you.

Heidi said...

So lovely to hear from you, June! Giggles certainly aren't required; there are times in life when they can be hard to come by. Know that you were missed, and please be gentle with yourself.

Your prayer beads are spectacularly gorgeous!

Storybook Woods said...

Dear June,
It is wonderful to hear from you, even with such heartbreaking news. I am so sorry for what you and your family are going through. I will be (and have) praying for you. Please know we are here for you. Love Clarice

Lena said...

Hi Junie Moon,

I've had you in my heart, hoping that you hadn't driven off a cliff somewhere. Life can certainly make us feel downright awful at times, can't it? I've heard it said, that God gives more troubles to those that can bear it, and that is a compliment in a way. I don't know if it is true, but sometimes, I think so, for I know, that I learn and grow from such times more than from any others, and I tend to think that is why we experience the things that we do. It hurts all the same, I know.

Your prayer beads are beautiful.

I'm sending you much love. Take good care.


Pat @ Mille Fiori Favoriti said...

Dear June
I was so happy to see your name in my blog comments today but I'm sad that life was rough in 2010. I hope that the new year will bring joy back to you again! As long as we are alive there is some good to find in each and every day. Praying is indeed comforting and helpful and your prayer beads are beautiful!


Yummy Mommy Mia and Daddy Al said...

Welcome back! <>

Donna said...

Sooo glad you're back!!! This will be a better year.

Shauna said...

2010 was definitely a rough year all around, but as always, the women of our family will rise above it stronger than ever and with our pinkies held high. ;) Love you, Aunt June!!

Yummers! said...

I'm so glad that you are back!! Remember that there is a lot of strength and support out here in Blogland.

My husband died one year ago tomorrow and I received so much strength from blog friends through comments, emails, cards, and phone chats. I'm here if I can help in any way... or if you just want to talk.

Wrapping you in love,

Yummers! said...

whoops... my number is 920 410 4161.

meg said...

You won't be the only one praying~ lifting you up already, my friend

Barbara in CA said...

June - soooo glad to see you back, I've missed your posts so much. I truly hope 2011 will be a better year for you. You always bring such joy to others, hope you get some of the joy back.


Sue said...

Praying with you and for you. Glad you are back... your beads are beautiful. At times, I carry rosary beads or a rosary ring that I fiddle with in my pocket to help alleviate stress and to remind me I'm not alone; I'm sure your beautiful prayer bracelet will prove to do the same for you.

Diane said...

I was surprised and delighted to see a new post from you after so long. Months ago I felt there must be something amiss in your life but I don't like to intrude in anyone's life so chose to remain silent and wait for your cheery presence.

I am so very sorry for the trauma and sadness in your life and I truly hope for you that the giggles return.

I adore the prayer beads you made and the entire thought behind them.

Warm hugs across the miles.

suz said...

I'm so glad to see you are back with us. We will keep you in our prayers and hopefully 2011 will be a better year.

meg said...

June, I have missed you so!! When your blog went silent, it seemed more and more likely that something had gone very wrong...and I'm very sorry to hear that this was, in fact, the case. Pls know that I am praying for you. A verse from the bible popped into my mind when I woke up this morning, which brought you to mind:
Philippians 4:8 "...whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is of good repute, if there is any excellence and if anything worthy of praise, dwell on these things."

I hope that 2011 is filled with these "whatevers". Welcome back! :)

Lorrie said...

June! I was thrilled to see you pop up in my reader today! I was worried about you.
Life handed many of us a hard 2010. I'm almost fearful of what 2011 will hold, but like you, I'm facing the future with prayer. Your beads are lovely. I wish you God's best for 2011, a year filled with new challenges and new opportunities!

Jill said...

Junie Moon, my heart leapt with happiness when I saw a new blog post from you. I'd been so worried, especially after your last past had been entitled 'Sort of Thelma & Louise Road trip'. All sorts of things had been flying into my head, but I was just praying that you'd just lost your blogging mojo for the time being.
I'm so sorry to read that life has dealt you some unhappy cards of late. I obviously don't know the details, but be sure that you are in my thoughts and I hope that you and your family have loving friends around you in these trying times.
Wishing you a happier 2011.
Best wishes.
Jill xxx

Beth said...

I was thinking it did turn out to be a Thelma and Louise road trip. Glad you have resurfaced and hope things get better in 2011. One day at a time.

karen said...

good to see you back! May 2011 be your year